I don't know anything...

    It's been said that there are two kinds of people in the world. Those who KNOW that they don't know; and those who DON'T know that they don't know.I used to be the latter. I THOUGHT I knew everything: I thought I understood God, understood what it meant to follow Jesus; understood clearly how to lead a great church; understood spiritual leadership; understood how to be a great husband and dad.
        Recently, however,  I have realized this startling truth: I don't know ANYTHING I thought I knew. I don't understand God; I DON'T know how to be a great Pastor, spiritual leader, husband, or dad. I DON'T know how to lead this church in to the future he has for us. I don't know what the future holds; and I don't know what God has in store for my life or my church!
    Mountain Lakers, Does that scare you? It shouldn't. It SHOULD scare you instead that at one time I THOUGHT I knew all this stuff, because I didn't know it in the first place! I just didn't KNOW that I didn't know. To me, that's when we should be scared. To me, THAT'S when we're really stupid: When we are to dumb or too prideful to ADMIT that we don't know all the stuff we think we know; to think that we can put God in a box; to think that just because God speaks to us that we can go do it in our own power.
        No, I'm glad God is bringing me BACK to the point of realization that I don't know anything. NOW I need Him. NOW I can't do without Him. NOW I'm desperate to hear from Him. I'm desperate for Him to bring clarity to my calling and my church's mission and strategy. NOW, I'm getting smart enough to realize that what I don't know many of the things I thought I knew; smart enough to realize that what I don't know, God knows!  So am I discouraged to realize I don't know anything I thought I knew?  Are you kidding me?! I'm so encouraged to know that I am back in a state of dependency on God AGAIN because I know that I don't know. I actually hope I never know anything!
    But I know this: I'll once again FEEL like I know something--that I've got some things figured out. Then I'll fall right back into self sufficiency and stupidity again; Then everything will come crashing down; then I'll repent again and admit again that I don't know anything I thought I knew. Now there's a summary of life this side of Heaven! Does any of this make sense e to you?